Mushrom Head

Mushroom is the nearest example of my life ... Mushroom is planted somehow by parasitic way it lives beside other plants and feeds from the same soil and same water but as a crop it may be poisonous and cause your death although you used to take care of it until it become mature ... this the same for me and the people who share the same circumstances of working family... travelling father.... broken bonds and lack of intimacy at some points.... these things lead to the "mushroom head effect " where you raised up according to your seed if it is good then you will satisfy your needs from the environment around you but in the end you will be good fresh and useful while if you are from poisonous seed then you will be fed on others food and in the end will poison everyone get closer to you...it is just weird thought and example but for no given reason it make some kind of sense to me.

سفينة نوح .... سفر الخروج

حلم الهجرة إلى أي دولة أخرى أصبح طموح أبناء هذا الوطن باختلاف طبقاته ....حجز مكان في سفينة الهروب أمسى الشغل الشاغل للجميع فلما البقاء في هذا المكان الخرب الذي لا أمل فيه .....الغلاء ، الفساد و المرض هم ضيوف الحياه اليومين .....الكل يحلم بلحظة الخلاص .....ليس من المهم معرفة وجهة الرحلة المهم الخروج .....أعداد ضخمة تخوض البحر بشكل غير شرعي حتى تصل إلى الجنة الموعودة ...... و أعداد قليلة التي تذهب عبر الطرق الشرعية ...... تجمع الفئتان النقمة على هذا الوطن ...... لا يختلف كل من سافر خارج هذا البلد أن الحياه في الدول الغربية تحكمها النظم الدقيقة و الأمور كلها تسير بيسر و سهولة دونما تعقيد ..... على الرغم من هذا يصطدم البعض باشياء كثيرة عند هجرته إلى الخارج فهذا الذي تربي على العادات الشرقية و لا يستطيع التأقلم على الحياه الغربية الصاخبه و أخر لا يستطيع تربية أبنائه كما ينبغي ..... أو يتم معاملته هو و أسرته كمواطنين من الدرجة الثانية مما يقلل فرصته في الارتقاء في المجتمع ......فهو شاء أو أبى ينتسب لهذا المكان الفاسد و سيبقى يلحقه عاره طالما بقى على قيد الحياه..... فلا يجد أمامه إلا أن يلعن هذا البلد اللعين الذي يطارده حتى بعد أن خرج منه أو يحن إلى وطنه و ذكريات طفولته في مكان مولده .... في كلتا الحالتين سيعرف إن الإنسان يقاس في هذه المجتمعات بالمكان الذي جاء منه و مدى تقدم بلاده و أن العلماء و قصص النجاح في الخارج لا تنطبق على الإنسان العادي فالسفر للدراسة أو للتدريس أو حتى للسياحة يختلف تماما عن الاندماج في مجتمع غريب و أن تكون جزء منه ...... للسفر سبع فوائد أنا شخصيا أخطط للسفر و لكن لفترة محددة لتعلم بعض الأشياء و اكتساب بعض الأموال .... و لكن بداخلي قناعة تامة أن سفينة الهروب لا يمكن أن تكون سفينة نوح أو طوق النجاه لأن نوح عليه السلام عندما بنى سفينة النجاه مع أتباعه تحملوا المشقة و التعب و تحملوا أذى و سخرية من حولهم لإيمانهم بعقيدتهم و لم يعتمدوا على تعب الآخرين أو حاولوا أن يهربوا من المواجهة .....و عندما أتى الطوفان - و هو قادم لا محالة - لم ترسو السفينة في أرض غريبة بل رست على نفس الأرض التي انطلقت منها ..... النجاه على هذه الأرض .....و لكن السؤال هل سنكون من ركاب سفينة نوح الحقيقيه ام سنكون ممن أهلكهم الطوفان .

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم ((إِنَّ اللَّهَ لا يُغَيِّرُ مَا بِقَوْمٍ حَتَّى يُغَيِّرُوا مَا بِأَنفُسِهِمْ))[الرعد:11]

OCD & Islam .. vision of muslim patient

Islam is the religion of one and half billion across the globe, Muslims are spread in the six content of the world.

OCD as any neurotic disorder is affected by the environment and demographic circumstances which help in shaping the symptoms of patient and one of these major factors is religious background.

Numbers and sequencing are very crucial in Islamic ritual, muslims have nearly specific procedure for everything in daily life and have minimal number of tasks that they must not miss, for example muslims pray five times a day , fast in specific time in the year (Ramadan month in the Hijri Calendar) .

These rituals in addition to forbidden things create the religious background for Muslim patient and his/her delusions start to evolve creating ideas different from the perception of OCD patient in western societies.

From the examples of the delusions that may attack Muslim is making mistake in any of his/her ritual procedure or forgetting whether he/she made any of his/her religious rituals, also bad thoughts about Allah or prophets may find way to his mind and put him/her in deep grief.

Metaphysics may create severe delusions specially in illiterate societies .

It is important for any psychiatrist or therapist dealing with Muslim patient to be aware of this as the easiest way for getting these delusion out of this person head is to let him know that his/her religion is flexible and by understanding it's correct rules he/she will be able to deal with forgetting their rituals, mistakes in doing it, with weird thoughts and metaphysics fears

Requiem for a dream

Obsession change life to hell, your ill thoughts control your moves turn into colourful dreams and these dreams are too good to be true , you must live the dream because without living it pain will be bearable and this is not the case ... you should be in deep pain silent screams that kept within your chest ... tears that can not go out ..live more the dream you bloody stupid ... give him what he needs ...grab him more ... smother him let him choke with his stupidty ...give him the rope to kill himself .....children do this growing boy ... cry more more and more for your toy ..... our game is fair... so accept to lose ...opps you loser...good luck next 100 times because you know the same luck will be there in let's say about 99 .9 times .....and to tell you the little secret bad luck is the invention of losers you little idiot.... you work as man , you carry responsability as a man , everybody likes you and they say they care for you .....oh honey with all this you still can not do single thing from what you want ...and what do you really want ? ....you can not face yourself with the truth.....oh i will do you favour... although it is not my way to make favours.....scream out what inside ... like sarah michelle in veronika decides to die movie say i hate ... I HATE people when they just tell me you are a kind person ... and I HATE myself when i leave my life to be under mercy of others.... and I HATE the lies we all live in and we struggle for it to remain.....And I HATE YOU .....I HATE YOU.

Oh my little coward was at last brave to tell the truth ......but you really do not want me anymore ....

"" I'm your dream, make you real
I'm your eyes when you must steal
I'm your pain when you can't feel
........
I'm your truth, telling lies
I'm your reasoned alibis
I'm inside open your eyes
I'm youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

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Sad But True""""""
Return back dear .....you can not live out there ... close the doors of pain... every door of pain ...you can not withstand the pain......start the requiem .... meet you in the next dream.

" emotion exile " when you can do nothing at all

Everyone had passed in his/her life by very tough situations sad ones and annoying ones and as reaction they start to scream , shout and cry share the hard moments with your beloved ones and see that there is no one sad like you.

Believe me there is more .

Did you ever was in the situation of being in what i call " emotion exile" when your beloved ones are in deep sadness they need you they need small wooden stick to hang to in wild storm in the ocean... you can feel their breathe beside you their heartbeats ... tear drops inside their souls
AND YOU CAN DO NOTHING .... IT IS Forbidden TO HELP TO SCREAM TO CHEER TO TAKE THEM IN YOUR ARMS.......

Then you surrender to fact you are physically meters apart but you are emotionally galaxies apart.

All you can do is to pray for their tortured souls to rest and that days can sweep all sadness and put smile on their faces .... because you love them and want to see them happy , amazing ,shining as always .....even you are not there ... and you are in your "emotion exile"

Mohamed
Cairo on Friday 4th of June 2010

Friends

Friends are one of the wonderful gifts of life however this relation may be ruined due to different reasons .

Stresses of life , changes in attitude and personality are some reasons of friendships collapse.

Do you see yourself as victim who deserve care and pity? Do you see yourself sacrifice your happiness ,life and everything just to make your friends happy?

If your answer is yes then i can imagine the impact of loneliness when you except our friends to be there and you do not find anyone.

But you need to see things from different perspective , actually no one in life has the right to force you sacrificing any precious thing in your life as a result you make this sacrifice by your own will for the ones you love most and you should not wait for something in return - as hard as it seems but it's a fact- and if you do not think they deserve any effort from your side so do not make it because simply no one will judge or ask you why you did not make sacrifice for me? ( it is very mean question from a friend )

Over-expectation is the root cause of any problem between friends so limit your ceiling of expectations and then small action from friend will means you a lot.

Choosing your friends is very crucial , sometimes we care for the wrong people and ignore true friends , this is fatal mistake , friendship is two way relationship and friend must care for his/her friend even by small effort otherwise he/she can not be called friend so do not replace true friends with fake relationships with people wrongly named friends this is very naive .

The biggest disaster ever that our lives depend on our friends if we are in a good terms then life is fine and if we are in problems then life is black , sad and depressing ..... your life is yours and happiness should be initiated from inside and should not by any mean depend on any other person.

Be in control because life is yours and not owned by others.

Remember every single moment of happiness with friends every smile or tear you shared

every event everything and if your friend changed or life separated you apart just remember that you still have many friends who still care

اللغه مصريه ام عربيه

كنت اطالع منذ ايام موقع " ويكيبديا " او الموسوعه الحره التى يمكن للجميع تحريرها و صدمت بوجود اسم غريب فى قائمة اللغات و هو " مصرى"
تعجبت و دهشت عندما دخلت الى الصفحه لأجد مقالات مكتوبه بالعاميه المصريه , قمت بالبحث عن اللغه العربيه خوفا من ان يكون الموقع قد استبدلها بالعاميه و لكنى حمدا لله وجدتها كما هى.

برغم احترامى و اعتزازى للهجتى المصريه و لكنى مقتنع تمام الاقتناع انها تناظر - ان صح التعبير- الديموطيقيه فى عهد الفراعنه فهى لغة العامه و التخاطب اليومى كما يكتب بها الادب الساخر و الشعر كما فى اشعار صلاح جاهين- التى اعشاقها عشقا كبيرا - و لا يصح ان تكون لغة للعلوم و الاداب و التعاملات الرسميه فبالرغم من جذورنا المصريه فان منبع الثقافه فى المنطقه هو منبع عربى و لا اقصد هنا الثقافه الدينيه فقط بل ايضا تأثر ثقافات الجزيره العربيه و الهلال الخصيب و وادى النيل فخرجت ثقافتنا الحاليه التى يجب ان نحافظ عليها .

و هذا الموقف دعانى لأن اطالع اسهامات المتطوعين فى الموقع فى اللغات الاخرى فوجدت الفرق الشاسع بين العربيه بقرابة 200,000 مقال على احسن تقدير و النجليزيه ب 3,000,000 مقال و الالمانيه ب 1,000,000 مقال و الفرنسيه ب 600,000 مقال

و لا ننسى العبريه ب 100,000 مقال و امام هذه الارقام وجدت بعدنل اشديد عن هذه الثقافات التى يهتم ابنائها بتطوير و تثقيف انفسهم
و قررت ان ابدأ بنفسى و احاول ان اكتب كل ما استطيع ان اكتبه املا ان يجعله الله فائدة للمتحدثين بالعربيه - املا فى الثواب -و حتىاساهم و لو بالنذر القليل فى رفع المستوى الثقافى لمن حولى.