Monday, 12 December 2011

كوني إنت


كوني إنت 
نسمات الشتاء تتخلل خصلات شعرك  الناعمة ، أنظر إلى أمواج بحر الحياه ....أستعد للإبحار بين جنباته و الحماس يدب في كل عروقي لم أعد أحتمل البقاء ساكنا ....لا أخشى المجهول وراء هذه الأمواج ......لا أعلم ما ينتظرني .....السفينة  تستعد للانطلاق ....تطلق نفير الاستعداد .... أنظر إلى عينيكي أري سكون رهيب لازلت تخافين ، لم أستطع أن أشعرك بالأمان ....هذا خطئي .....لكن ألا يغفر لي كل هذا الحب في قلبي .....ألا يغفر لي كل ما أعده  لكي .....كل ما ينتظرنا سويا.....تلتقي أعيننا..... صوت همهمة .....قراري اتخذته لا رجوع إلى الوراء ...سابحر مع سفينتي  سأعيش حياتي كما أحبها .....أري امرأتي الجميلة بجانبي على ظهر السفينة ....هذا إختياري ... أما إختيارك إن تكوني هي ..... او .............كوني  إنت  

Saturday, 5 November 2011

ليلة عيد تستحقينها


ليلة عيد تستحقينها

ما بين هذا الصخب من حولي و السعادة بليلة عيد غير تقليدية في اوروبا ، و أجواء الاحتفال في كل الشوارع  لأننا في نهاية الاسبوع حيث تنطلق الموسيقى في كل مكان و يسهر الجميع  حتى الصباح كانت صورتك معي و حولي ، كم كنت أتمنى أن  تكوني هنا معي  لتشاركيني  هذا الجمال و اللحظات المبهجة ،بين بسمات حسناوات المدينه و رائحة عطورهن لم يشغلني كل هذا عن رؤيتك أمامي ...... في معطفك الأبيض ..ملاك تسير ...على كتفيها ينسدل شعرها خصلات من حرير......كتف في كتف و يد بيد نسير في شوارع المضيئة في برودة الطقس و أنفسنا البيضاء تتلاقى أمامنا  و نجد عند المنعطف  شاب باله  الأكورديون و رجل كبير يعزف الكمان و موسيقى من السماء تكسر الصمت بيننا لا يسمعها سوانا .... نرقص سويا كما لم نرقص من قبل ... لا يهم من في الطريق ...لأني لا أري سواك......نذهب لنشرب القهوة و ترسمي با لملعقة  وجهان مبتسما ن   في  كوبين ...... هما ببساطة إنعكاس وجوهنا ....... نذهب لنشتري شئ نعده سويا للطعام ..... أنا أعرف إنكي تحبين الطهي .....نشتري أشياء كثيرا ....نتسابق في طرقات المتجر .....أفسد عليكي  كل الأشياء عند طهيها .... نأكلها و نضحك رغم إنها ليست أحسن الطعام الموجود .....لكنه ما قمنا به سويا .....فستانك الأسود القصير فيه الحيوية التي تغطي على برودة الهواء نذهب لنرقص في الملهى نحتفل نحتفل......نسرع الخطى إلى مطعم على أضواء الشموع مطل على مجرى الماء و الكبري القديم في مشهد شاعري و فوقنا القمر .....نمشي و قد أهلكنا التعب أعلى التل حتى نصل إلى القمة و المدينة من تحتنا و أنظر إليكي ...و أقول أنتي ملكة  هذا المكان ... نعود .....سنبقى حتى طلوع الشمس سويا و أقول لكي الجملة التي لم تتحملي عناء الرد عليها  ....كل عام و إنتي بخير.....لكنك لم تكوني موجودة و قمت بذلك وحدي ....إصراري على أن أصل إلى قلبك يزداد في كل خطوة لي في المكان ....و  لن ينكسر إلا على صخرة إصرارك على الهروب لا عن ضعف مني .....و لكن تسامح المحب المشتاق ......يمامة بيضاء تحمل خطاب و ستصل إليكي مهما كنتي فهي تعرف كل العناوين ....أنظر إلى أصابعي  الزرقاء و أدرك إن الجو أكثر برودة مما أشعر ......أعتقد لأن جسدي هنا .....و روحي في مكان دافئ يبعد عني آلاف الأميال.   

Thursday, 3 November 2011

Abandoned

When i knew about my trip to ireland i did not know why i fear from it , it is nice oppurtunity in work and wonderful life experience to live there for almost 1 month . but i continue in fear no idea why , when i reached my destination i started to know why  and day after day image get clear.... simply because i will face my personality and will see my image in the mirror of life .. the truth i cover with my masks.....anatomy of my naked personality , it is not covered anymore ....face it man ... you cannot leave alone ... you scare to death from being abandoned and now you are, you are alone away from family and friends .... you fear of social interaction with others and in practical semi racist community social life becomes tough , you turn to Allah and convinece yourself you manage toto keep your rituals in very bad conditions and wait for God to change your life into pink color all around you.... you see the light in cute girl you just knew and  how to bring the entemcy to life and how you wait.... you torn the papers like what you did in your childhood ... i am in misery ... you scream ... i can live normally here you can't imagine ....you scream and scream calling for help ...enjoy the pain ... enjoy the big dilemma ... and the scene must go on ....bring the new born relation to death the only light must go dim again ....return to the comfort zone again ....except one thing this zone does not exist here in the place you fear to stay in .... no one will allow you to set it here .....you go to streets and you see real you and know now that all life was midnight summer dream ....with no big words ... life is meant to be lived ... mistakes are the signs of healthy person ...smile is the weapon erase all sadness ... true faith is the tranquility of believer .....and true love is one that sustains ....be the man stand up for the right to BE.

Sunday, 23 October 2011

I need You

It's you behind glassy door in angelic white, it's the breath of your smile, the lovely footsteps, the calm looks on your face ,your silence that kills me thousand times, the steam of your coffee that burns the heart, the mysterious  eyes , the black silk strings called your hair ..... i break a door after door just to tell you "j'adore" ....and just beside you all words slip away & stare at your beauty and pray.

Wednesday, 22 June 2011

Something beyond friendship ... the thing beneath love

Days come and go , the hard moments and the wonderful ones and still there you are, in your territory away with your body , emotionally very near , but you were never near enough to cross the border to my life, every street had something we shared together ,quote we said together ....and things that will never be erased from my memory ...i confess it is hard and being harder to be away from you but this is the only way to save the good part of me & you ... it's like the earth and sun you can not get closer so you will be burnt or far and you will be freeze ...same we are if we get together we will burn in fire and also cutting  bonds with past will make us cold blooded ..... the fact is that we can't be together but you will always be there and around for how long ? i do not know ..... i wished things were more clear not in this shadow grey area ... but it was my feelings and the something beyond friendship & the thing beneath love

Saturday, 28 May 2011

"Who Moved My Cheese ?" Review

It is wonderful book and simple way to pass knowledge and let anyone from any cultural background understand the message sent by the book.

The author summarized the whole issue in "Haw" drawing in the end of the story "Change Happens ...Anticipate change.......Monitor Change....Adapt to change quickly ....Change ....Enjoy Change !".

Change comes whether we accept it or not, so we should adapt and look forward to future and make our dreams truth that we can live and enjoy.

Friday, 20 May 2011

Obama speeches to arab world from cairo 2009 to #MEspeech

President Obama has addressed the Arab world yesterday to unveil the American policy toward what is being called by " Arab spring", he talked briefly on each country including Tunisia , Egypt , Libya , Yemen , Syria & Bahrain mentioning that US will support the democratic change in north Africa and middle east politically and economically.

Understanding the development of US policy toward the region will lead us to analyze  the main points of  Obama  speech in Cairo university -addressing Muslims around the world- and compare it with the points raised in " #MEspeech" .

In Cairo Obama raised several points for almost one hour including the vision of his presidency policy in the region, he admitted that US relation with Islamic world is passing by deep tension on both sides & his target is to set new relations based on mutual respect and mutual " interests", so speech included many verses of Quran ,religious historical events and some Arabic words.

He defended the Muslims' rights in USA and emphasized  on minorities' rights in Islamic countries, women rights were on the table also establish true democracy in the region by people free will leading to progress in education and science in these countries.

The political vision was very clear , 1st US will end all combat operations in Iraq and start the withdrawal process that should ends in 2012 , this was the first point mentioned in his "#MEspeech" claiming that US fulfilled this promise and withdraw 100,000 from US troops in Iraq, however fear in the Arab side that America will keep military bases on Iraqi soil which impact the Iraqi national decision and put the country in uncertainty state also make Iraqi oil under the direct supervision of USA.

2nd Point was fighting terrorism and develop the political life in Afghanistan, Also Obama appeared as man of his words by displaying the results of war on terror and on top of it killing Bin Laden , dismantling Al -Qaeda cells in Pakistan & Afghanistan and the gradual withdraw from Afghanistan , also there are fears that NATO will keep military bases in the country and the condition for US forces to leave is not tangible which is being sure that Pakistan &Afghanistan will not be used by extremist against US interests and safety.

3rd Point is to minimize the spread of nuclear weapons and the focus here is on Iran and their nuclear project on the other side there was not any mention of Israeli nuclear arsenal and the issue was kept vague.

4th Point is Palestinian - Israeli conflict , Obama as every resident of the white house hope to end this conflict that drain world resources over sixty years and the image of the peacemaker and the Nobel prize winner for peace always in every US president mind, in 2009 Obama supported the solution of two states while in 2011 he made a challenging move toward the bonds with the Israeli ally when he adopt the1967 lines for the Palestinian state with "agreed mutual swaps" also he declared that Palestinians are under humiliation of occupation, this is considered huge shift in US policy and big challenge for his administration to convince Israeli PM with it, on the other side of the conflict US will push on Hamas and PLO unity government  to recognize the Jewish country of Israel  and leave any armed resistance against it.

Obama added two new points to the policy in the region , 1st acting as safe guard of the region which is considered to be message of reassure gulf countries that US will stand for them against Iranian threats also to protect commerce flow in the world.

2nd Help the new revolutions in Arab countries to pass the economical side effects of this turmoil and started with Egypt & Tunisia by encouraging all countries to invest there, declare that OPEC will make big investments in the oil field in the region , create foundations to make big American investments in both countries and he removed 1 billion US$ from Egypt debt that should be paid to USA.

These were the main frame of the Obama policy in middle east and it;s progress in two years but it is very important to mention that he promised to close Guantanamo bay prison and stop torture however he could not pass this decision through congress and he acquiesced to the opposition to this move also news about prisoner committing suicide in camp delta preceded 2011 #MEspeech and this promise in 2009 was not fulfilled.


During the speech the tone of attack on dictators in middle east was varying from severe attack on colonel Gaddafi to strong message to Saleh of Yemen and weak actions against Bashar El-Assad in Syria and total hypocrisy when dealing with Bahrain issue.


Religious rights was important concern in both speeches while in 2011 he declared the shite rights of worship in Bahrain.


2011 Speech was another verison of 2009 public relation speech as changes in middle east is moving very fast US had to "protect" it's "interest in the region" that's why US administration will draw new lines for it's policy that keep pace with Revolutionary tide in Arab countries and somehow aligned with the old policy with small changes away from the main lines and on top of these lines is security of Israel